Here is a poem I wrote. It won a poetry award in 2013. I also read it at Living Spring Church the Christmas Eve before my husband passed. I pray it touches you!
Mary’s Birthing Pains
There is pain in your birth, dear Lord,
tugging me deep within.
Each contraction gripping me, my heart, my mind.
Be with me here.
I want to hold you in
and keep you safely mine,
my child.
There is no safety for you
in this world.
No matter how I pray.
You gave me you
to have and to hold within
solely my womb, protecting you
as only a mother can, as only this mother will.
At conception, no
one wanted you, but me.
You are mine, and I am yours.
Always
During pregnancy, no
one wanted you, but me.
You have grown within me my son.
We have been one.
Your blood – mine
My breath – yours
I saved you from the world
and now the world
you come to save.
These pains swell and grow
this surging wave of birth rolling strong.
You needed me God,
now I need only
you.
In these last moments, I welcome this pain
reminding me I have held you.
I have carried you.
I feel your need to be born, my blessed child.
Your pain is great.
Help me God.
Prepare me for the hurt I will feel this lifetime for you.
I feel it now.
There is no room for you in this world, my son.
Not even in me.
My body betrays my heart
wanting to release you.
I will welcome you.
I will welcome you with a mother’s kiss.
